Another negative pregnancy test this weekend. I am handling it surprisingly well, considering how optimistic I had been feeling. I am somehow compartmentalizing the news, ignoring it, and staying numb-ish. No tears, no real surge of anger. Not sure why.
Enjoyed the family Halloween gathering, even if the inside out caramel apple recipe was a major bust. Don't make those ahead of time!! My first ever broccoli soup turned out to be majorly delicious. Thank you, smoked bacon Gouda. My house is cleaner than it was last week by a huge margin thanks to pre-company nonstop cleaning. If I didn't have company, who knows how big the dust bunnies might grow to become at times.
Mostly I'm feeling tired, crampy, and numb, which is okay for today. I was going non-stop all weekend, including Friday afternoon and evening, and I am just spent. Tomorrow is another day. Next month is another cycle. Inhale. Exhale. Repeat. Enjoy not crying and not feeling like a basket case. Appreciate having no obligations to meet today. Watch backlog of DVR'd shows. Take nap, if needed. Inhale. Exhale. Repeat.